I told the team my story. My story with food, and my body, and opening the gym, and not being enough, and not knowing who I am or what I wanted. My story of taking a leap of faith just because Lauren Farina and Kelly Carter told me that they kind of just thought I could. Joe Powers told me that, “you have the spirit for this, you’ll just have to do a lot of learning.” And I trusted them. I told the team that basically, I created getFIT615 in the most selfish way possible - I created a space that I desperately needed. I turned it into my home and I waited for people to show up and need it too. And they eventually did start showing up - and then they stayed too. When we were talking about our core desired feelings in regards to the gym, a word that came up for all of us was “home.” In a home you feel like you belong and that you can get comfortable there, and you can stay for as long as you want, for as long as that space serves you. You can go as far away from it as you can possibly travel, for as long as you can stand to stay away too, but you can always turn around and come home. A home is so full of love.
Bloom where you are planted means bloom as a daisy in a field of poppies. They both need full sun right? Bloom where you are planted is knowing that just because you’re a poppy in a field of other poppies, it’s still important for you to bloom! Because you’re the only damn poppy who is you! Are you following me here?!
Does it feel authentic to who I am and what I do to lead a retreat where we make sure that we workout and sweat every day? Absolutely it does. I know for certain that getting grounded in your body with a beautiful view, fresh food, excellent company, downtime, sunlight, daily meditations, rest, conversation, horses, paddle boarding and water is one of the best ways to come to life feeling rejuvenated, full, nourished and well-rested. And that feels 100% authentic to me.
I learned this weekend that expectations set us up for failure especially when they are not communicated. I learned that I have some goals that I'm not currently working towards so I'm going to have to make some changes. I'm learning to be kind to my grief and my sadness when it comes up. I'm learning that I crave partnership and connection in both business and personal. I value authentic connection and when that doesn't happen from both parties, I feel that, and it doesn't feel good for me so I need space. I love leading and I also love learning.
But you know what, it wouldn't have been anything without everyone who had been part of it along the way. I wouldn’t have started running without people like Justin Rearden, Hilary Atamian, Kelly Turek, Megan Conner, Taylor Lewis, Jenny Aguilar, Jordan Herbert, and so so many others who told me I could. I wouldn’t have kept running if nobody had wanted to run with me. I wouldn’t be anything without the people who are closest to me who lift me up through everything that I do. Because, who are we if we’re not connecting and sharing that with other people?
And you guys, the point here isn’t to pick up running, although, if you want to you absolutely can. The point is to do everything and anything you want to do, even when, especially when it’s uncomfortable… and to do it with people you love.
To love and be loved you know? That’s the only way.